Anxiety and ADHD had such ahold on my life I was such a mess. Literally a fucking mess, I could not do anything other than what was right in front of me at the time, sure I could conquer anything that was right in my face with no problem what so ever, but when it came to doing things that did not have a high priority they often fell to the wayside. I became very socially awkward and withdrawn, I was terrified to talk to people, and I am sure people thought I was a perpetual stone faced bitch because I would not talk, I first thought it was shyness, and that I would get over it, but it just became worse and worse to the point where I did not like leaving my house because it required me to talk to strangers. The first time I realized my medication was helping me was when I found myself talking to strangers asking them common questions like “how their day was going”. ADHD made me such a mess, literally I was a slob, I could not get things cleaned I could not get things organized, I just had no way of wrapping my head around any task that was put in front of me. I am really bright person, I have an IQ over 120 but I have never felt so dumb in my life. I just could not complete so many simple tasks because they simply over whelmed me. This is not something that is new this is something that I have dealt with my entire life they just progressively got worse over to the point where I could not handle my life. Now things are so much different, I am looking at the past and I am thinking my god what have I done? Why didn’t I seek help sooner? I am able to have conversations with strangers with no issues, I am way more outgoing than I have been in years, I have developed a confidence that I have never had, I am able to clean things up, and keep them clean. I am able to keep things organized and in order, I also am able to keep track of my things. There are so many more benefits of seeking help. I am sure I will continue to discover things that I have struggled with before that are so much better now, and I will share those as I discover them.